my blog is gone!! oh..wait, there it is!

Okay..so, blogger has been really weird lately. Some times it will work, but for the past couple days, it hasn't been working at all. So, since I still wanted to blog, but had no way of doing so, I set up an account over at wordpress, which is where my sis Marcy blogs. So, I will be transferring over to wordpress for the time. We're trying to decide if we should get a new computer or not, because the one we have is completely wacko. Anyway, so, for right now, I will be over at wordpress. You can find my blog here. I will continue to post my poems, updates on me and my family, and talk about the Twilight saga there. In the future I may set up a blog similar to this one on wordpress. And let me remind you that my blog over at wordpress is still very very new. I'll be trying different layouts and such for a few days just to see what one I like best.

Peace
Sam

Finally...

Kaleb Nation, a.k.a 'The Twilight Guy', has finally finished reading Twilight. He started The Twilight Guy blog back in April, when he first started reading the books. Now, he has read the last chapter and given us his thoughts. If you're a Twilight fan, and haven't read his blog yet, I would recommend you do. He's pretty entertaining, and his youtube videos are definitely entertaining. But, back to his blog. We're still waiting for his thoughts on the Epilogue, which he has promised to give us on Saturday. Oh, and he's got good taste in music, which gives him extra points in my book. =)

Peace
Sam

25 days left...

There are only 25 days left until the release of Breaking Dawn. Needless to say, I'm really getting excited now. But, seeing as I pre-ordered it from amazon.com, I won't get it until maybe a week after it's been out. It's going to be torture, knowing that a lot of people have already read the book, and I'll still be waiting for my copy to come. -sigh- I told my mom that when I do get my copy (I'll be waiting for the mail every single day after August second until I get that book) I'm just going to go sit in our back yard and read it the entire day. I'm guessing I won't sleep until I finish it either. =) After all, that's what I did with New Moon. I finished that one in a day. That's probably the fastest I've ever read a book of that size. Anyway, as part of my 'letters to inanimate objects', I wrote one to my paperback-copy of Twilight. So, here it is.

Dear Twilight,
You are a New York Times bestseller. And I completely understand why. Even if you are a bestseller, somehow, my paperback-copy is getting torn apart. It's been pretty used, and I haven't even owned it for a year. So, sorry about that. Already, my little copy has survived moving, being passed around, being read multiple times, my locker, and countless other places. You are one strong book. I'm quite impressed with you. Oh, and, I have a small obsession with you.
Sincerely,
Rose Grubb

A little piece of me

These two poems here are newer ones, both connected in a way. They are both a piece of me, of my thoughts, of my emotion, my thoughts. I've debated for a few days about whether or not I should post them, because they are so personal. They might not be my best poems, and they might not have that 'flow', but like I said, it's a piece of me.

Thirteen
Ice lodges itself
in my throat.
Gasping; I need air.
I stumble,
someone catches me,
wraps their arms around me.
Memories burned to
the under-side of
my lids.
I am weak,
my eyes close.
The pictures dance
in front of my eyes.
They stab my body,
I am weak.
Words try to calm me,
they do not work.
I gasp for air.
The memories come faster,
quick punches and blades.
Memories of a sister,
a friend, a hope.
I try to hide them away,
but I am weak,
and I am only me.


A Secret Wish
Can I get a moment
of serious thoughts,
because I need to talk.
I need to explain,
what's happening
with me.
Confused, scared,
angry, and only thirteen.
These thoughts
bother me.
I'll smile and lie,
but she still
haunts my dreams.
And in the quiet of the night,
I still find tears
in the corner of my eye.
I need a moment
of serious thoughts,
because I need to talk.

ACDC vs. M&M

A while back, Jon M. Chu (the director of Step Up 2) and Adam Sevani made a dance crew. They challenged Miley Cyrus and her best friend, Mandy, to an online dance battle. Both crews are really good, and the battle is still going on, even though the battle started in April. (Just for the record, I favor Jon's team, ACDC.) You can find the rest of the battle videos on Youtube. This is the first video.

Peace
Sam

A crazy ride home...and Speak

I'll start with the book first. =) Speak is Laurie Halse Anderson's first book. It is incredible. I just got done reading it, and loved it. It's so much better than the movie. And even though there isn't that much dialogue, it's still really good. Anyways, you'll have to read it for yourself. =)

Okay..now on to the ride home. We got to the train station early, because we had to get our tickets exchanged. Me and Molly wait on a bench while Mom goes to get the tickets. We wait a long time. When she finally does come back, she tells us that because of the flooding, we're going to be taking a bus to Spokane, and then getting on the train and riding it the rest of the way. After a little complaining, we stand up and go grab some stuff from the vending machines. (We had planned to eat dinner on the train, and didn't have anything for dinner.) We wait a while, and then our bus comes. As we line up, we start to wonder if the bus (that goes straight to Spokane. No stops.) will hold all of the people. It won't. Some of us end up having to go get on the bus that still goes to Spokane, but makes a lot of stops in between. Me, Molly, and Mom ended up on the bus that will stop. It's pretty empty, so we're happy for the moment. And then, they tell us that ten people are going to need to get off that bus because they're going to need a lot of seats for the people they're picking up later on. Thankfully, we don't have to move. Other people volunteer, and we wait to leave. When we finally do get moving, it's not that bad. I've got a seat to myself, and am completely happy. Even though I'm happy, it's still a long ride. We left the station around five (I think...I don't remember the exact time..) and we get in to Spokane around one. I pretty much got a seat to myself the entire time, which I was grateful for, because it made it a whole lot easier to get some sleep. When we pull in to the Spokane station, we end up waiting for almost two hours for our train to pull in. At that point, we weren't very happy. When we finally do get on the train, we settle in and then try to get some sleep. Thankfully, I slept okay...for the train, anyways. I mean, it was sleep, so I'm happy. The rest of the ride went smoothly, and now we are safely home, enjoying the sun and our own house.

Peace
Sam

Slacking

I realize I haven't posted in a while. Sorry about that. Since I'm with Marce and her family right now, I've been kind of busy..and exhausted. =) On the train, I got two hours of sleep. Yeah. Needless to say, I'm still trying to catch up. And, of course, there is always the time difference. But, it's still been pretty fun. There have been some hard times when the memories just are too much, but I think it's been okay. I mean, every single day at home, I would come across something and just start thinking about her. Some days it's a lot better than others, but it's still a hard process. Incredibly hard. I'm just glad I've got a good family to help me through all this. I'm sure the memories will never stop coming, but I don't want them to stop. I can stand the tears, and the pain, because I know I will get to see her again. But for my time on earth, I don't want to just forget about her. I loved Kelly so much, and I still do. And, some of the memories I have of her are good, and some of them aren't. It's just the way that things work.

Peace
Sam

When You Look Me in the Eyes

Okay, the title has nothing to do with what I'm writing about, it's just the name of the song I'm currently listening to. =)
Anyways, tonight we're taking the train out to visit Marcy, Travis, and the boys. My dad has to leave again on Monday, because he's coming to pick up a car. But me, Molly, and Mom will be staying for a week. I'm really excited to see everybody again, but I'm also a little nervous. The last time we went to Seattle was for Kelly's treatments. I'm not sure how I'll react to being out there without Kelly. But like a lot of other things now, it's all a part of the process. And we'll be able to get through it. And the train ride is 17 hours, so I'll have lots of time to prepare myself. =)

Ahhhh....I'm getting super excited now!! The special edition of Eclipse was released about a week ago, and it contains the cover art of Breaking Dawn and also the first chapter!!! Of course I'm going to buy it! (and most likely read the chapter over and over and over...well, you get the idea.) The cover art is already up on the site, and I've stared at it for a while now. =) Only 56 days now. I'm hoping that the time will go by quickly, but to make it go by even faster, I'm currently rereading all three books. This is my fourth time reading Twilight, and I still love it just as much as the first time I read it. My poor paperback is falling apart. Speaking of Stephenie Meyer and her awesome writing ability, I finished The Host a while ago, and loved it! It was incredible. I can't really talk about it though, because my mom is currently reading it, and I don't want to give anything away. Oh..one more thing. I went to Indiana Jones when it came out, and was super excited to see the Twilight trailer in the previews! It's the same one they've had on the site, but it looks amazing on the big screen. So, look for it in the theaters!!!!!!

Alright...I suppose I should go pack now. =)
Peace
Sam

The River

Yesterday my dad didn't have to work, and it was absolutely beautiful outside. So, we loaded up the car and headed up to Glacier Park. We went to Apgar and found a spot by the river. The water was really high, and there was no beach at all. So me and Molly found a spot that where we could sit on the rocks, and still stick our feet in the water. Which is what we did. Of course, the water was freezing cold because it's all from the snow that's melting, so we quickly would pull our feet out. It was a good day of relaxation.

The River

A scatter of rocks,

two girls sitting.

One with a book,

the other with a barefoot

in the water.

A silly joke,

a moment of laughter.

Silence again.

An observation,

a question.

The book put down.

A short discussion,

two smiles and sunlight.

Watching the world;

the smell of sunscreen.

Shorts and tank-tops,

first day of summer.

Two sisters,

a silent bond.

Running through my mind

Don't know how to say the words out loud,
so I write them all down.
Thoughts, feelings, dreams,
all recorded here.
Hiding sometimes,
clear in other places.

The summer is coming quickly,
school went by too fast.
So much changed,
and I don't know who I am now.
Writer, insomniac, and utterly confused,
so many things are new.

Worried about going there again,
worried about the memories left there.
Things I want to forget,
but so many things I need to do.
They hide there,
they're not clear here.

Images I don't want to see,
haunt me in my dreams.
Fight sleep just to escape
the coming nightmare.
Drown out thoughts
with loud lyrics.

A smile, a laugh,
hardly seems fair now.
Life goes on,
even without you here.
The sun comes up, the sun goes down,
and I'm still standing.

Lifeboat

I'm just going to post a poem I wrote just a few minutes ago. It's one of the most personal things I've written, and I've written a lot of personal things. That's all I'm going to say, so here's 'Lifeboat'.

Lifeboat

There was so much

love in her heart,

the girl who

was sick.

Nineteen,

young but old.

So blessed,

even when

hard times came.

A contagious smile,

a beautiful personality.

Such a hard worker,

accepting life as it is.

Watching her strength drain,

the fight end,

forever in my mind.

Tears and silent prayers,

then and now.

Seeing her motionless,

like seeing a

candle blown out.

The candle is still there,

but the flame

is no longer visible.

Sitting in Heaven,

she sees us down here.

Memories pop up everywhere;

a song, a room, a picture,

always fresh tears.

Time goes on,

we're clinging to

the promise

of seeing that smile

the day we join her.

Happy Birthday, Mom!!!

Yep. Today is my mom's birthday. In my opinion, she got some pretty awesome gifts. None of them from me, my sisters, or my dad. The first gift, is that this morning, we discover that there are robin's (my mom's favorite bird) making a nest in our tree. The only other time that we've ever had a nest in our tree is when Kelly put her hair out after she lost it when she was seven. Then, when she takes my dad to work, she sees a rainbow. When she's coming back, she realizes it isn't really a rainbow, but just a patch in the sky of rainbow colors. She loved it. Later, she was talking to Marcy on the phone. I was in the bathroom, brushing my teeth and getting ready for the day, and I hear 'Rose! Rose, come here! You have to see this!' coming from the kitchen. With a sigh, I put my things away and slowly go out to the kitchen, expecting just another robin or something. Instead, she points out a baby bunny sitting in the middle of our back yard. We watch it from our kitchen window for a while, and then at Marcy's request, I go outside to take some pictures. It sits incredible still for a few minutes as it watches me as I lift the camera to take a picture. Soon, it decides I'm not going to hurt it, and it just goes about it's business. That was at 10 this morning. As I'm writing this, he's still in our back yard, sitting in front of our shed, eating dandelions. Amazing, right? He let me get incredibly close to him to take pictures, and me and my mom were both thrilled. So we sat outside for about two hours (I'm not even kidding. I took, like, fifty pictures of him.) and just watched him dart in and out of our shed as he ate a little. As we're watching him, we hear a bird song that sounds really cool. So we look up, and sitting on a pole right near us is a dove. To top it all off, it's really really nice out. I don't think we could have asked for a better day. So, happy birthday Mom.

Quite annoying actually.

This is just a quick note to apologize for not posting in forever. I've been..not sleeping. So, I'm a little brain-dead, but working on getting a regular schedule again, and then, I can promise I will post more regularly!!!!! Yeah..so...school is winding down! Yay! It's almost done with, thank goodness. I'm so ready for nice weather, sleeping in, and the lazy summer days. Oh, and after school is done, I get to go see Marcy, Travis, Gavin, and Nate!!! Whoo hoo!!! Definitely looking forward to that. So, yeah..I'm gonna go try to sleep now. =) Have a great rest of the week!!!
Peace
Sam

WHAT?!?

-sigh- I am sad to say that I just found out the final episode of the season, of the best show ever, The Office, is next week. It was off for a really long time because of the writer's strike, and it seems like it's barely been going on again. However, I'm extremely excited to find out what's going to happen. I really hope that Jim will propose to Pam...because that would be awesome. (If you've never watched the show, you should. Right now.) Anyway, I guess I'll just have to wait for next week.
Ahhhhh...my library won't be getting The Host until sometime next week, which is an incredibly long time to wait (for me, at least.) so I decided to just buy the book instead. How convenient is it that I'll be in the city (which has a book store, thank goodness.) tomorrow? I don't think I could wait any longer to read The Host. It's just too bad that Stephenie won't be coming anywhere near me during her tour. =( Speaking of Stephenie and her wonderfulness, I was so excited when the official Twilight teaser trailer was released this week!!!! May I just say that it's absolutely awesome? Robert Pattinson and Kristin Stewart are perfect for Edward and Bella. I have no doubts about them at all. It's amazing how a single minute of movie footage can convince me that this movie will be perfect. (You can view the trailer here.)
Peace
Sam

New Moon Quotes

So, I'm reading New Moon for the second time, and these books are filled with awesome quotes. So I thought I would share some of my favorites. =) (Let me warn you though, some of these quotes could possibly give away story lines, if you're planning on reading the book. And, yes, I do realize that most of them are from Bella. But the book is from her perspective.)

(I'm not quite sure what I love so much about this first quote, but there's just something about it that I really like.)

Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. -Bella

"We watched zombies eat people. It was great." -Bella

Only a teenage boy would agree to this: deceiving both our parents while repairing dangerous vehicles using money meant for my college education. He didn't see anything wrong with that picture. Jacob was a gift from the gods. -Bella

"Five foot four is perfect average....It's not my fault you're a freak." -Bella

"I'm in the mood for action. Bring on the blood and guts!" -Bella

"No. I told him you were planning to corrupt my youthful innocence." -Jacob Black

Yep. There you have it. Some of my favorite quotes.
Peace
Sam

-sigh- Still waiting

So..my last day of school, is May 30th. I don't get to see Marcy, Travis, and the boys again until June. Breaking Dawn comes out in August. The Host comes out May sixth. Psych (one of the best TV shows ever) doesn't start up again until July 18th. I'm just hoping that May will go by quickly. I'm ready for summer and camping trips, and I'm really ready to go see my nephews!!
There isn't anything very exciting going on right now. We're still working on painting my room. I can't even sleep in there right now, because of all the paint fumes. But I believe it's going to look pretty awesome once we've completed it.
Yep..that's pretty much it. I'm just waiting. (not very patiently at times, I must say.)
I know I've talked, and talked, (and talked some more) about the Twilight saga, and The Host, but I don't think I've ever actually posted a link to where you can read more about the books, and the upcoming Twilight movie. So..if you would like to read further in to them, you can just go here. That's Stephenie's official website, where it's got all the info. (A great fan site is the twilight lexicon. They are awesome at keeping everyone up to date! You can check them out here. )
Hope everyone has a great weekend!
Peace
Sam

A New Hope

Yep. I've been reading the Star Wars Trilogy (which is A New Hope, The Empire Strikes Back, and Return of the Jedi). Yesterday, I finished A New Hope. Honestly, these books are amazing to read. The descriptions are awesome, and at times, quite funny. One of my favorites is the way it describes Darth Vader. Here's the description from A New Hope....
Two meters tall. Bipedal. Flowing black robes trailing from the figure and a face forever masked by a functional if bizarre black metal breath screen--a Dark Lord of the Sith was an awesome, threatening shape as it strode through the corridors of the rebel ship.
Fear followed the footsteps of all the Dark Lords. The cloud of evil which clung tight about this particular one was intense enough to cause hardened Imperial troops to back away, menacing enough to set them muttering nervously among themselves. Once-resolute rebel crew members ceased resisting, broke and ran in panic at the sight of the black armor--armor which, though black as it was, was not nearly as dark as the thoughts drifting through the mind within.
It's awesome, right? I mean, you can just completely picture that. I'm one of those people that if I read the book, and there's a movie, I have to watch the movie too. Of course, I've seen all the Star Wars movies before, but not in a while...so, of course I'm going to watch it again! Anywho, just wanted to share that little description with you all.

Hm...another update. After a whole lot of thinking, looking at my poems over and over (and over) again, I've made a hard decision. I've decided that I'm going to wait to enter the competition. I don't think I'm quite ready yet. So, I'm going to keep writing, and just enter a different competition later on.

Peace
Sam

So many distractions...

The hardest part of writing a full story for me, is actually staying with the one story. It's nearly impossible for me to have only one story idea in my mind at a time. I'll be writing something, and all of a sudden, I just get an idea, and I get distracted. It happens a lot. I've found that I write certain things to certain music, because I always listen to music while I write. The most recent story I'm writing, which was actually started yesterday, I've found that listening to Feist's newest CD is my musical inspiration. =)
Besides the distraction of other ideas swirling in my mind...there's just so much going on around me that makes it hard to write sometimes. I find myself writing at kind of odd times/places. Today, I was waiting for my mom while she was mailing a package at the post office, and I could finally have no distractions while I wrote. Of course, I didn't bring any paper, and so I found a napkin and scribbled a few sentences out before we had to get going again. But, I think the main distraction for me..is just my own mind. It wanders often. =)

I'm sooooo glad that the weekend is here. It seems I've been running around a lot this week, so I'll be glad to just relax.
Oh, did I mention that it is still snowing? =)
Hm..here's another letter to an inanimate object. Enjoy.

Sunday, March 9th, 2008

Dear Coat Hanger,
I pass by you daily when I walk in the door. I've never really took much notice of you though, except when I just load you down with coats. It seems a little rude, now that I think of it. But what do you want me to say? Hello? Like I'll really get an answer back. I've noticed you don't really talk. But, thanks for holding all our coats and hats.
Sincerely,
Rose Grubb

Only 13 days to go!!!

13 days until The Host by Stephenie Meyer comes out! Grr..I hate waiting for all these books to come out. Oh well. There's still a lot of days (101, to be exact) until Breaking Dawn comes out, but at least I'll have The Host for the summer. =) So..being the obsessed fan I am, I love checking out all the different sites for the books. I recently found one called Twilight Guy. It's this guy who's blogging about the books as he reads the series for the first time. I'm one of those people, that absolutely loves to hear what everyone else thinks of certain books..so, I love reading his blog. If you want to check it out, clicketh the link. http://www.twilightguy.com/

Still nothing to report about the band...we're having a hard time getting started..since none of us really know how to play our guitars still. But, as soon as I've got anything to report, I promise I'll report it. =)

Hm..I'm trying to find some really good books to read while I wait for Stephenie to release her new books..so if anyone has any recommendations, please please please tell me!!

Ohhhh...I started another blog too!! This one is dedicated to music, one of my favorite subjects. http://music4therapy.blogspot.com/ <<< There be the link!

Hope everyone has an awesome week.
Peace
Sam

Weekends of snow

So..this weekend, it's been snowing and pretty cold. Typical weather for us, but still kind of cool when the sun's out and there is blue sky and we're getting winter storm warnings. Finally, we've had a pretty calm weekend. Molly had music festival on Friday, which was a little boring to go to..but the songs that the choir did were pretty awesome.
Yesterday, me and Moll went to the movies with two of our friends. (One of which was our bandmate, Kelsey.) We saw the movie Jumper. It was really good. They had a really awesome cast, which is an added bonus. And, of course, who really minds looking at Hayden Christensen for a while? =) After the movie was over, Kels came over for a while and we just hung out. We watched some JKL videos on youtube...which are the best videos in the WORLD. It's just these kids doing a whole bunch of random stuff, but they are really really funny.
And now..we're all just being lazy. We've been busy lately, and it's nice to finally just be calm. It seems like we hardly get to just sit, and not have anything to do for an entire day. So, whenever I get the opportunity to have a relaxed day, I'm going to hold on to it.
Peace
Sam