Monday, February 25, 2008

Whoo hoo for poetry!!

This one is called 'Stupid Reality'

Stupid Reality

Sunlight is shining through my windowpane,
rain is falling on my heart.
Thunder rages in my head,
and the birds are singing in the trees.
Everything that's going on around me,
feels like stupid reality.
And you all sit there, and judge me,
while you can't even really see.
You wouldn't think of discovering what I'm all about,
instead you believe what you don't know.
You wouldn't dare to be different,
you wouldn't dare to let them know you have a not-so-perfect life.

You don't know what to do, so you put labels out.
And you try to fit in with the rest of the crowd.
As the sunlight streams in, and the rain falls,
life goes on.

You have to find your place, and count your blessings.
Don't try to impress,
be yourself and no less.
So I say to you now, my dear,
the choice is yours.
Will you let the rain whisper to you,
or will you continue as you are?
As the sunlight streams in, and the rain falls,
life goes on.

Sunday, February 24, 2008

I really don't spend all my time writing. I swear.

But I do spend a fairly good amount of time writing down things. It's what I love to do. So here's another poem I wrote. I wrote this one a while ago too. It's called 'I Cry'. Enjoy, and again, go comment-crazy.

I Cry

On dark nights, when I am the last to be consumed
by the sleep that holds so many hostage,
I wonder.
I wonder if it will turn out alright,
and how things might have been in another life.
I wonder if you feel these things too,
if the hurt kills you as it does me.
I wonder if anyone can see behind the lie
of 'I'm fine, really.'
I wonder if I am as transparent as
I believe to be.

On dark nights, when I am the last to go under
the nighttime spell,
I cry.
I cry for you,
who must experience so much pain.
I cry for me,
who hardly knows what's inside my soul.
I cry for them,
who don't notice that which doesn't want to be noticed.
I cry for the world,
that has become so blind.

Saturday, February 23, 2008

Currently Untitled

I know. This is my second post today, right? I don't know. My days are so messed up. But you know, I just have to write. I have to. I just have to. I don't even have to write anything that makes any sense right now. But I just have to do something. And writing is the thing that I do best. But I just don't know what to write. There are so many things I could write about. So many. But am I ready to actually write about any of them? That, I am not sure about.
I think that the answer is no. I'm not ready. I just can't. You know what I mean? There are so many things I want to write down, but I can't right now. I just can't do it.


A Road To Guide Us

Hello readers!! So, I've really taken to the idea of posting poems, so I've got another one I would like to share with y'all. This is called A Road To Guide Us. I wrote it a while ago, and it's actually kind of strange that I stumbled upon it today while I was browsing through my poems. It's ironic because I'm kind of going through a tough time, and I had completely forgotten that I had wrote this. I never imagined it would help me through something else. So, here it is for everyone. Again, feel free to comment. (It's kind of long..sorry 'bout that.)

A Road To Guide Us

This road that we're walking,
is a hard, twisted lane.
And if we keep falling,
it's alright, we can handle the pain.
The rain will drench us,
and the sunlight will shine.
No matter the circumstances,
we must march on.

Fights will break out,
and friendships will end.
New faces will be seen,
and loved ones will be lost.
Silence will come,
and noise will be over-whelming.
No matter the circumstances,
we must march on.

I know that it's tough,
and sometimes you just want to give up.
But you'll soon get victory,
we'll soon leave this behind.
The end is so much better
than the trip that takes us there.
No matter the circumstances,
we must march on.

It's all planned out for us,
and it's our job to take it as it comes.
It's all our choice,
so what's it going to be?It's your life,
come on now, be what you want to be.
No matter the circumstances,
we must march on.

This road that we're walking,
is a hard, twisted lane.
And if we keep falling,
it's alright, we can handle the pain.
The rain will drench us,
and the sunlight will shine.
No matter the circumstances,
we must march on.

Friday, February 22, 2008

Ten Minutes

Hey hey everyone. Well, I kinda liked posting a poem up here, so I decided to do it again!! Of course, this one was written at a decent time, but I'm still not quite sure about the 'flow' of the words. Tell me what ya think!!! (It's called ten minutes. Which is how much time I had to write it.)

Not much time to write,
hurried words,
frantic mind.
Not trying to rhyme,
hope everything turns out just fine.
Just say what I feel,
angry about so many things.
Pain to an extreme,
thoughts a confused mess.
I need to talk,
need to get away.
I don't know what to think,
don't know what to say.
So I just write it all away.

See what happens when I write at odd times?

So, I'm sitting here in front of the computer, not ready to go to sleep yet, and I decide to write a poem. Well, I don't know if you could call it a poem, but I'd like to think of it as one. So, here's what I came up with. (Feel free to comment on it, even if you think it's a piece of crap.) Enjoy.

Sitting here with the lights turned off,
water bottle, music, and computer.
1:30 AM
Forcing ideas out of a tired mind,
words could sound better if I wanted 'em to.
1:33 AM
Words racing through my head,
none of it really makes sense.
1:35 AM
Regrets bitter and too much to bear,
worried about future plans.
1:39 AM
A confused writer,
I swear only one more poem before I'm off.
1:43 AM
TGIF I suppose,
hey hey to early mornings.
1:44 AM
A minute passed,
quickest typing yet.
1:45 AM
Ideas flowing like river water now,
bye bye to stalled fingers.
1:46 AM
I think I could go on forever,
writing minutes of my life.
1:47 AM
Taking a serious outlook on life,
what will happen if she dies?
1:48 AM
Inspired by a song,
silent tears fall for so long.
1:49 AM
Hey look I made a rhyme,
haven't thought about that in a while.
1:50 AM
Random writings of me,
twenty minutes pass.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Welcome to Thursday

So, I'm sitting here, playing Poppit on Pogo (I loves that game) and trying to figure out what to blog about. (Remember that last post about writer's block? ^^) And, behold, I sat here in front of the computer, and Thursday arrived without me knowing it. It's strange how time passes like that. It goes quickly, and you hardly even know sometimes. Other times, you can be aware of every minute. Like when you're waiting for something, time can drag on forever. (But I don't have to tell you that.) Anyway, this day (I guess it was yesterday now. So, Wednesday) went by so fast, I can't believe it's gone. I wonder how many days I'll have like this? How many days will go by without me hardly knowing? I just hope that even if the days go by quickly, I'll still remember it. Especially now. I want to remember every day I have with my sister. Yesterday, (or, Tuesday) my sister gave us a quite a scare, and now, it all seems so much more real. I mean, any of us could be gone soon, and I just don't want to forget all of these good times right now. It's important to me to have these memories.
Hope y'all have a great rest of the week/and weekend

EDIT: Okay, so when I first posted this, it says I posted it on Wednesday at 11:51 PM. I'm staring at my clock, and unless I've gone blind, the numbers read 12:45 AM. *sigh* Is my computer just messed up? Anyways, by my standards, Welcome to Thursday.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Oh, dear Pencil, please move.

Writer's block is perhaps the worst thing that can happen to you when you're trying to actually write something. I would like to be a professional writer one day, and I really hate it when I get a sudden brain lapse. It's like I just shut down, and I can't get words to fit in to a sentence and to still make sense. Now, I've tried things in the past to get through this as quickly as possible; I tried listening to music, reading other things, going outside and taking a walk, moving to a different place and trying to write. These things work for a short time, and then I can only get a certain amount of words to flow right. Sadly, I find that I just need to sit down, and think. About anything. Or sometimes, it actually works to just sit down and write random words/phrases on a sheet of paper. One word can send a landslide of ideas. I actually think I have better ideas later at night, but then again, I'm so tired sometimes, I write something down that I believe to be good at the time, and then in the morning, I read it and go 'what was I thinking?' But that's just the way it goes. And with writing, you can always go back and cut things out, or add things in. You can change it. I only wish it worked that way with real life.

Sunday, February 17, 2008

3-D Glasses and The Wolf

I'm a big movie-watcher. I'm the type of girl that sits at home the entire day and watches movies. And I'm not a huge fan of 3-D movies, because I usually end up with a headache at the end of them, but I took a chance and went to one on Friday with my sister and my dad. I have to say, I absolutely love those 3-D glasses. They're huge and nerdy. What could be better?
Another thing I really really am in love with is music. (Which I know I've said in past posts.) And there is this awesome country radio station called 'The Wolf'. I listen to it whenever I can in the car. It just plays the best song. And any day that I can get awesome glasses and listen to my favorite radio station is a good day in my book. ^^
Hope everyone had a great weekend.

Saturday, February 16, 2008

Lazy Days

You know those type of days. The ones where everyone sleeps late, and then just sits in bed for a while longer, trying to become fully awake before showing yourself to the rest of the house. Today was one of those days. Kell had some doctor stuff this morning, but the rest of the day was spent at the house. Molly practiced guitar (we're going to be international superstars someday you know) and I read a lot. (Reading is a very good lazy-day activity) In my family, it seems like we're on the go a lot. So it's nice every once in a while to just sit at home and watch movies. Those are some of the best days. When you can just sit and be comfortable. I love weekends.

Monday, February 11, 2008

We Never Really Know

Lately, I've been thinking about what's going to happen in these next few years. My older sister is battling leukemia, and when a family goes through something that changes your life as much as that does, you really have a different outlook on everything. One thing this experience has taught me is that you have to have faith. You can't go through something like this and not have faith. It's just too hard. I can't imagine going through this and not knowing that God is going to take care of my sister. Because He is taking care of her, and all of us. It may not seem like it sometimes, because we go through a lot of pain, but He is. I mean, sure, a lot of things have happened in my life, and you sometimes you wonder how much you can be loved if things like that happen. But then I look at what I got out of the experience, and how it made me stronger, or how it brought me closer to my family, and I know that there was a reason it happened. With my sister having leukemia, I've moved a lot so that she could get treatment. It never is easier to just pack up and leave, but every time that we do move, I meet new people. And, if nothing else, I am now pretty darn good at packing a suitcase. Every time we move, I see new things. I learn more about myself, and what I really do love. It brings me closer to my family, and it makes me stronger. This brings me back to my faith. I may be young, but I know about it, and I know how I feel about it too. I know that it confuses me sometimes, and I know that no matter what I do, I'll still be loved by Him. And so, it doesn't worry me that I won't know where my life is going until it gets there.
Hope everyone has a fantastic week.


Thursday, February 7, 2008

I have adorable nephews

(Above, Nate is sitting with Grandma. And to the left, Gavin is sitting on Grandma's lap after dinner.) Aren't they just the cutest little boys ever? I love 'em so much! And Gavin is really talking a lot now. Which only makes him cuter, even though I really don't know what he's talking about sometimes. And Nate is just adorable!
I can't wait until they get even older, and we can really find out what they're thinking about. ^^
Hope everyone has an awesome weekend.

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

Amazing concert!!

Oh my gosh. I absolutely freaked out yesterday when I found out that I actually got tickets to go see the Jonas Brothers in concert. I won't lie, those boys are incredibly talented. And they put on a really good show last night. It was crazy how loud it was in that arena!! As soon as the boys came on the stage, you could easily tell that they have a ton of female fans. I may suffer from permanent hearing damage from all the screams. (I must admit, I was screaming right along with the rest of 'em.) Like I said though, the boys are excellent performers. It was an amazing experience, and I will definetly keep listening to their music! (If you haven't heard any of the JB songs, I suggest you go listen to them.) I can't wait for their next cd to come out. I still can't believe I got to go see that amazing concert!
Hope everyone has an awesome rest of the week.